c'est la vie

is so damn confused!!!!

2009-10-29T00:52:00.000-07:00

gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr short time left!!!

i have to decide whether im going to take the short term course which is EFFCOM
or i have to go to work...well actually...i really have to go got work..but i also wanted to go to school..yeah i admit partly because of him!let me clarify..PARTLY!!!!
i also miss my friends... :) ...hahaha thats the funny side..before i didnt want or love school this much...now look?!?! it seems like im paranoid in going to school! hahah......mine is.. if im going to proceed effcom it might get conflict when i get to work, we all know its shifting right???....

so that's it...im really confused!!!! aarrrrrgghhh!!!

my new obsession :)

2009-10-25T22:11:00.000-07:00

well theres this new guy!!! we've been classmates for errrr four subjects this college.. yah i admit i have this slight feeling that i had before i think that was way back...when i was at my first year level at college and first subject mi nag ka classmate!!! grrrrr....but SLIGHT lang gyud..im already aware na he already had a girlfriend!!! i really don't understand i felt for him today is way different than before!! it all started pag acquaintance party!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

i want to get him out of my head!!! i think he's already aware that theres something...
i even sent him a quote last night...I wish there was a recipe for getting you out of my head :[ ...

my weakness is i cared to much!! :(

2009-08-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

i hate you

RONNIE JAMES OYANGUREN PEPITO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what have you done to me?!?!?!?!?
i didn't expect this to happen!!!!!!!

damn you!!!

and im closing my door

2009-07-16T00:56:00.000-07:00

waaahh!!! di nako animal!!!

i didn't expect you've done this to me!! i thought ako ra?! LOL..hahah
i know were done for the past weeks..but i saw this picture at the slut's profile!
you two were cuddling with each other!!! what the fuck!!! yeah i admit i get jealous..[yeah yeah whatever!]..hahha...but i was really mad and i wanna blast! im hands are shivering!!! nag lagot ko kay at that picture kay kami pa adto?! and he told me na sila ra daw duha sa iyang manghud unya the next is kuyug ang barkada ni eson..lain lain na ang rason!! and i found out theres this slut!!! they even have a picture na i think ga kiss or something!?!?!? and i was like!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!

wala man gni ko naka ingon ana! kayasa doh!!! bagag nawng..and he told me na binuang ra nya?! what the!!! di ko mo tuo oi!!! and that picture was taken long time ago! and the other bad side is he didn't do it a the first time but many times [he told me!] i was only expecting two..but he told me many times already?!?! see how stupid he is?! yeah i know im also one..hahah...

well anyway dont want to talk about that again!! coz its making my blood boil to death!!! LOL .... and really i mean it! im closing my door!!!!

i just cant get you out of my head

2009-06-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

arrghhhhhhhh!!! whats wrong with me?!?!?..can someone help me please??? [LOL]

he keeps on running on me head...and i can't take it.. :(
wondering how is he doing right now? or is he fine....yeah! honestly i miss those days e had a long conversation here at the net..even we haven't meet up..i just couldn't understand what is he hiding? or shall i say refuse to chat with me?? he neglected me this past days...it really bothers me a lot!!! as in...i can't stop thinking have i done wrong????....well all i want is, if doesn't want to talk with me..then tell me frankly its ok...i know it hurts but ill accept it...rather than carrying this burden inside my head...[lol]

aarrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!! i miss him...but the question is,does he miss me too?!?!

killing me softly

2009-06-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

wtf!!!!! ok im paranoid right now!!!
this is really killing me!!!.....where the fuck is he?!?!?!?

if he want this way..well he should tell me frankly..i know how to understand and i know how to let go, i have to accept it even it hurts.. :( .... but in this kind of situation...its like your hiding!! i checked your friendster account and your last log-in was 24 hrs!!!! how come?!?!?!??! you never logged in at yahoo messenger and at facebook...i was really waiting!!!! but dang! you didn't appear :( ...i know your just there maybe you turned it to invisible......plssssssssss don't do this!!! your really killing me!!!

all i want is a smooth talk :( :( :(

does this mean the end?

2009-06-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

im wondering where is he right now?

suppose to be we always have a chat every night...i really wonder what is he up to?
or he does want to chat to me anymore...

well actually..yesterday something bad happened :(

he told me he had a lot of problems...so i let him pour all his the things running in his mind..what i mean is, things that gave him a headache...so i told him why wont you spill it out?...at first he said sorry....i was shocked...and asked him sorry for what?

from there, he started to share what is bothering on his mind...he told me, he saw his ex :( ...okay????..then go om i told him...he said, he doesn't understand what he felt at that point when he saw his ex...so i asked him what does that feeling mean? i know there's something..he said, something he can't explain, that's why it really bothers on his mind..so i asked him in a different way i asked him to rate in a scale of 1-10 he answered 5..[wtf!]..at that point, i was like [boom!!!]..come on 5???? so its a yes and a no..right? its neutral its in the middle....so meaning there's a possibility that will happen...well, come on it's too obvious right?! that he still likes his ex...i know i shouldn't be feeling like this..coz i know were just friends :( ..but i told him what if i wanna gonna far?he said..adz! pls don't..im scarred...my problem is....its not all the time, were always like this..you know what i mean????..this is not forever..yes i admit i already like him! he told he'll not gonna leave, his always there for me [don's worry adz im always here]..but what if, time will come he already found someone and his happy would his life...[wtf!] i know im selfish at this point..coz i have my boyfriend with me...but but..i cant help this feeling towards him!!![wtf!].....waaaaaaaaaaahh how am i gonna accept it?! if that time comes?!?!?!?!? see??? [wtf!]

and right now ive been waiting for him for the whole day.... :(
but sadly no Ronnie James o. Pepito whose online just for a second..no offline message, no text message and no call from him.... :( ...am i expecting for nothing? or shall i say am i wasting my time???? :(

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Does youre ex miss you?

2009-06-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

hahaha i juz took this survey at facebook....if ure asking why??? well im confused (haha no one should react about this?!or either ask who??!!!hahah).....well yah, im really confused what his up to??? and to think he was the one who look for anyways that we can see or communicate each other again....hahahah...like hello..its been 4 years!!!!! we i was shocked he came back...i wasn't expecting these things to happen.LoL..but im not kiddng...IM WAAAhhhhhh ----- hahah

and the result of that survey : ----

TADA---

your ex still misses you. It's hard for her/him to forget about you. you probably made them very happy and they're probably thinking why you 2 broke up in the first place. When they're laying in their room or zone-ing out in class they're probably thinking whether or not they'll ever meet someone like you. Another chance is all they're waiting for. but they won't wait too long, they're probably other people with their eye on them. So if you miss them back, grab 'em while you still can.

puhhlleezz cud someone explain this to me???

another horoscope i didn't plan to read!!!

2009-05-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

The Bottom Line

Get grounded in reality and face whatever (or whomever) you've been trying to avoid.

In Detail

Buying things to make yourself feel better might provide temporary fulfillment, but whatever you're trying to distract yourself from isn't going away any time soon! You can't sacrifice your bank account in an attempt to give yourself retail therapy. Instead, focus on being grounded in reality. Face whatever (or whomever) you are trying to avoid. Until you do this, you will never find the peace of mind you deserve. You are not the bad gal here.

oh come on this is the second time....so what does this mean??? is this a sign?hahahha

i miss those days :(

2009-05-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

when i went home...
i passed by at mcdonalds, fuente...the one beside watsons....

i saw these three girls who were having fun.laughing, eating, chit chat and stuff...they were really enjoying

first thing that pops in my mind is the triquetra...and believe it or not i had this hair raising effect(LOL)
i didn't understand what i felt at that moment....and words coming out of my mind
"hala ingon ana man mi before...."

wala lang ni share lang ko..hehehhe

damn! i missed those days :(

one missed call..(part 2)

2009-05-19T04:30:00.000-07:00

darn!!!!

i knew it..when i looked at my cellphone this afternoon there was one missed call and the number was no t identified i t just says...(no number)..the first thing that pops on my mind is a long distance call...and without any idea who he or she is...

when i arrived home...i logged in my yahoo messenger...lots of offline messages but i disregarded them..when i scrolled down...CCCCCrrrrAAAAApppppppp!!!!

Tiny Santos: hala ni call ko nmo pero wala man ka ni answer ok lang oi cge nlng au2x dh ok

wwaaahhh!!! i knew !!! it was a long distance call....but honestly, im not expecting him to call me....i was even surprised that he gave a lift...and the thing is i always set my phone on silent mode whenever im in class..well...have nothing to do about it...it happened again and the fact that, this is the second time... :(

text

2009-05-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

around 3AM...something pushed me to tell "him" something i really wanted to say...i didn't control myself at that time, and i dont know why...i never felt fear or shall i say i was damn strong to blew it...the fact is i really dont know what made me decide to text him, im not used to throw these words at him and now ive done it.... here it goes:

ging naa ko sulti nimo di ni sa ingon na ganahan ko na mag buwag ta or naa ko lain or di na ko gnahan nmo..ayaw ni lainag sabot mo sulti ta ko nimo pag gahapon pa..ug maka kita ka ug lain na mas OK nko..ok lang nko,basin mas deserving cya nmo..di ko malain bahalag sakit dawaton nko..ni sulti ra ko nimo ani ging..and if magkita ta or mag kasturya..sample inig ka monday mo anha ko di ko gs2 na ato ni sturyahan or mo ask ka nako ani..ibutang lang na mura rag wa lng..bsta mao ni ako ingon nimo...

sigh----

todays horoscope (may 1, 2009)

2009-05-01T06:34:00.000-07:00

The Bottom Line

It's not going to be an easy day if you're feeling indecisive. Choices must be made.

In Detail

It's not going to be an easy day if you're feeling indecisive. You've been going back and forth about continuing a relationship. Today you need to stop the madness and come to a decision. Certain truths are starting to become too obvious to ignore, so stop ignoring them. Until you see things as they truly are, you can't move forward and give your full attention to someone who is much more deserving of your time. You can't be friends with everyone in life.

-- wow! i decided to read my horoscope today at my friendster account, actually its not in my plan and i don't usually open horoscopes i just ignore them..but today i dont know what comes out of my mind that i read it.maybe because im really bored and nothing to do...heheh..and the thing here is...the horoscope really struck me!!!its like oh my gosh..can you believe that?!..its so damn true!!!hehe..i just lurve todays horoscope... :)

i hate it when he say bye

2009-04-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

we had a conversation this afternoon at ym and here it goes:

Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:41:15 PM): really?
adz (4/28/2009 1:41:25 PM): really
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:41:50 PM): btaw
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:41:58 PM): unsa man?
adz (4/28/2009 1:42:09 PM): unsa man na?
adz (4/28/2009 1:42:21 PM): and here we go again.....
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:42:25 PM): but lng
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:42:51 PM): huh
adz (4/28/2009 1:43:05 PM): ask nasad ka na unsa man?
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:43:05 PM): btaw unsa mana?
adz (4/28/2009 1:43:39 PM): hhmm..hahay do i have to explain again and again and again
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:44:05 PM): saon klaro ba
adz (4/28/2009 1:44:37 PM): lage...
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:44:39 PM): sko ka ron?
adz (4/28/2009 1:44:46 PM): nope..
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:44:56 PM): really
adz (4/28/2009 1:45:00 PM): yep
adz (4/28/2009 1:45:06 PM): mana akong klas sa morning
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:45:08 PM): nice
adz (4/28/2009 1:45:11 PM):
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:45:16 PM): btaw?
adz (4/28/2009 1:45:34 PM): hahay tiny..uu lage
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:45:41 PM): ok
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:45:59 PM): nya unsay au dha?
adz (4/28/2009 1:46:06 PM): hhmmm...
adz (4/28/2009 1:46:16 PM): so far...still summer
adz (4/28/2009 1:46:18 PM): heheh
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:46:27 PM): ok
adz (4/28/2009 1:46:40 PM): bout there?
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:46:48 PM): same
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:47:02 PM): no work
adz (4/28/2009 1:47:17 PM): oh good thats nice
adz (4/28/2009 1:47:42 PM): then watcha doin naman?
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:47:52 PM): wala lag
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:47:57 PM): lang
adz (4/28/2009 1:48:29 PM): hmmm...
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:48:49 PM): hmm
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:48:52 PM): talk ta?
adz (4/28/2009 1:49:01 PM): naa diay kay mic?
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:49:11 PM): uu
adz (4/28/2009 1:49:17 PM): aw gadala diay ka?
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 1:49:27 PM): dli beltin lang
adz (4/28/2009 1:49:34 PM): aw i c
Tiny Santos (4/28/2009 3:06:44 PM): nag sand storm

then he called...
there we started to chit chat..and again he asked the same question..and again i explained..
ay nako!but we had a lot of fun, and he told me he feels the same way as mine but there's nothing he can do im already taken and told me na sayang daw..even i myself can say the same thing and he doesnt want bad things to happen like fight,arguements stuffs like that..and theres this one thing that is so wwwaahhh as in wwohhoo!! he told me na there was one time i left an offline message that says im gonna go to savannah and find him..so far, i didnt remember..hehe..but honestly, im planning to visit there..he told me if its true..he'll gonna wait for me..shheesshh..(if he'll wait!) i just told him time wont tell and we'll never know..and in addition he told me i look thin..(hahah!!what a great news)and i look good too.."samot daw cya ka-ibog"LOL..(coz he wanted to view me and asked if i could turn my cam on)..well i dont like the part when he let me saw the pictures of his Ex girlfriends..(duh!)..lain man sad kaayo if i'll refuse ryt?..

hay well anyways..at least we talked and its good its his day off today and i had no class i just stayed here at home..we talked for 2-4 hrs i think??i just cant remmeber what time we started talking i didnt get to eat my lunch that time..hahah

PooooFFFF...

2009-04-27T01:49:00.000-07:00

Tiny Santos: nge wala diay ka klase noh
adz: naa man..late nako.hahah
Tiny Santos: hala ka
Tiny Santos: cge lakaw na
Tiny Santos: check rman sad ko og mail then lakaw sad ko
adz: busyha na nimo oi
adz: wala nakay tym sa ym
adz:
Tiny Santos: uu
adz: tsk tsk tsk
adz: how are you?
Tiny Santos: ok lang
adz: hmmm
adz: wat tym na dha?
Tiny Santos: ambut lang nag dali man ko
Tiny Santos: cge na kay mo sakay nko sa blackhawk
Tiny Santos: later nlng
adz: ok takecare
Tiny Santos is typing a message.
Tiny Santos: later
Tiny Santos has signed out. (4/27/2009 4:59 PM)

ing-ana lang kadali...then he went out..at least ni PM cya nako :)

the perfect timing :) (exactly 3AM dawn)

2009-04-22T13:15:00.000-07:00

hahah..just taking a nap awhile ago..and wheni woke up i turned on the computer and logged in to my yahoo messenger i just appear invi to all..then suddenly,he was online..there i set my availability as available to all..(hahah)...i just waited if his gonna pm me or not..well, he did (yey)..and here it goes...

Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:21:35 PM): huh wala pka na 2log?
adz (4/22/2009 8:21:40 PM): nope
adz (4/22/2009 8:21:42 PM):
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:21:48 PM): hmm ok
adz (4/22/2009 8:22:03 PM): how are u?
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:22:11 PM): ok lang
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:22:27 PM): nya msta naman ang college lyf dha
adz (4/22/2009 8:23:22 PM): haha..ssoo hustle...tired of lots of thingd to do
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:23:36 PM): ah cge padayon lang dha
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:23:47 PM): mo balik man sad ko ron unya taod2x
adz (4/22/2009 8:23:52 PM): ok lang oi
adz (4/22/2009 8:24:12 PM): ikaw..hows ure life doin there?
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:24:23 PM): ok lang sad ko dri
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:24:33 PM): kapoy gamay pero ok lang gud
adz (4/22/2009 8:24:51 PM): ana man jud na..mao man imo ganahan sad
adz (4/22/2009 8:25:04 PM): may gni naka net ka sa
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:25:04 PM): haha
adz (4/22/2009 8:25:19 PM): may gni naka online ka
adz (4/22/2009 8:25:39 PM): just woke up man sad ko..nag nap ko gamay
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:25:50 PM): hmmm
adz (4/22/2009 8:25:57 PM): hmmm sad
adz (4/22/2009 8:26:22 PM): timing sad ni online ka
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:26:35 PM): huh ngano man
adz (4/22/2009 8:27:19 PM): believe it or not i dreamt na online daw ka..not kidding
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:27:40 PM): huh
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:27:44 PM): la ko ka g
adz (4/22/2009 8:27:49 PM): lol nimo
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:15 PM): i dreamt ba while nag nap ko...ga online daw ka
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:22 PM): nya the fact na tinood
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:24 PM): getd na
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:28 PM): gets na*?
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:28:29 PM): umm ok
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:28:32 PM): sabot nlng
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:40 PM): hahay ambot nimo tiny
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:28:46 PM): hahahh
adz (4/22/2009 8:28:51 PM):
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:29:04 PM): nag upload lang ko sa akong isa ka pics dri pag ganina kay bored man ko
adz (4/22/2009 8:29:16 PM): hahah..asa man ron?
adz (4/22/2009 8:29:21 PM): e sharenalang na oi
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:29:21 PM): wait
adz (4/22/2009 8:29:29 PM): okie
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:30:01 PM): kta na
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:05 PM): hahahha
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:09 PM): uu kita na
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:30:13 PM): ok
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:30:17 PM): isa ramana
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:36 PM): i can see in this pic na bored jud ka
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:38 PM): hahhaha
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:49 PM): is this you?
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:30:54 PM): hahha
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:30:55 PM): saon
adz (4/22/2009 8:30:58 PM): mura lageg di
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:31:02 PM): btaw oist mo lakaw nko
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:31:09 PM): kay balik nsad ko sa work
adz (4/22/2009 8:31:20 PM): hahay ok..
adz (4/22/2009 8:31:31 PM): dalia rasad oi
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:31:36 PM): 2log nlng dha
adz (4/22/2009 8:31:47 PM): later pa ko mo sleep
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:31:47 PM): baslik sa imong daman2x dha
adz (4/22/2009 8:31:58 PM): hahah..mayta mo padayon
adz (4/22/2009 8:32:01 PM): hahah lol
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:32:10 PM): lol
adz (4/22/2009 8:32:16 PM): you take care of yourself always
Tiny Santos (4/22/2009 8:32:25 PM): later
adz (4/22/2009 8:32:33 PM): okie later

Tiny Santos has signed out. (4/22/2009 8:32 PM)
Last message received on 4/22 at 8:32 PM

shhesshh..i hate it when he keaves..but theres nothing i can do, he has to go to work.. :)

oohh..its almost raining..

2009-04-20T01:02:00.000-07:00

wwaahhh!!super duper stormy kaayo ang clouds sa gawas and to think i have to go back to school for my last subject...if only i dont have an exam...shheessshh. (LAW sucks!!! :p)

anyway..wootwoot i cant wait to be thin again..hahhahahah...watch out!!

bwahahahahaha

HELP!!! me to get over it...

2009-04-17T10:16:00.000-07:00

i chatted with his twin awhile ago...and i asked him...
"is tiny leaving???"

he replied "he already went to iraq"

"when is he coming back?"

"maybe for 36 months" his twin replied.....

WTF..36 months??!!..as in 3 years??!!!gosh....i cant wait that long!!imagine im already 24 years at that time na and his 28 yrs old napud..probably im at canada at that time already..hopefully we can see each other...if i can wait..hahah..honestly, i dont know what my life is gonna be three years from now..

sshhyyeeetttt..i feel like wwwwwwwaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!di ko ka get over as in..wa pajud mi naka talk sa phone for the last time lang unta....:(

wwaahhh seriously im gonna miss him!!! :(

one missed call

2009-04-17T04:28:00.000-07:00

[13:17] devil_may_cry832002: oist ummmmm ni call ta ko nmo pero la man ka ni answer so ok lang kay busy man sad ka sa imong skol ok lang larga nko so au2x nlng dha ha

[20:34] coccyx_adz: ni call diay ka nako?
[20:35] coccyx_adz: wala man ko kibaw...when man ka larga
[20:39] coccyx_adz: ssoorrryyy wla ko kabantay sa imo call hopefully you can call me back [20:39] coccyx_adz: mishu

darn!!!wa nako ma insert akong sim!!!!bullsh*t.................. X(

hahah..just sneaking on my blog spot :)

2009-04-16T18:51:00.000-07:00

im at school right now and having my class.. i just secretly logged in to the internet and my teacher doesnt know about it..hahahah...im totaly bored!!! This class is my first subject....

(kapoy english)hahahah...

wala lang nangawat rako ug net dri sa room...amo activity ron kay magpractice mi ug shortcuts sa keyboard di mi mag use ug mouse next meeting..LOL..mag exam pa jud mi tomorow..lisuda oi...heheh..

till here..coz i have to check my mails and got to go to...ill be back when i got home this evening :)

wwoohhoo!!!

2009-04-16T07:30:00.001-07:00

finally....

my laptop is already fixed ... :)

hahay klase nasad ugma...

its the song!!!

2009-04-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

sshhessshhh ni paly ang your guardian angel!!! wala lang..hahay!!! ehle nag post ko ug blog.. :)

the offline message... :(

2009-04-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

ooh crap! my computer didn't work!!had my laptop reformatted knina..but it said error daw ang Operating System..shheesshhh..(Jan what did you do?!)..well anyway naki hitch ra ko sa akong cousin ug net..heheh...nya when i checked my YM he left an offline message..its quite sad..but ok lang...and here it goes...

[12:07] devil_may_cry832002: umm yaw tawn palabi sa imong g bati ok dli pko mka answer nga y man ka nka gusto nko? and then sa tinuurai lang dli ko ganahan nga mag buwag mo sa imong uyab nmo kay kamo ok na kau mo ok...ni pranka lang ko nmo kay ako dli sad ko kabalo mo handle og relationship basin ma pul an ra ka nko. nya dli sad ko ganahan na ang akong ma ka uyab nko kay magi pul anon... sabta lang ang akong g sulti ok....yaw lang ka suko ni sulod lng ko ani na job kay mao man gyud ni ang akong choice... ana gyud ko.. ni likay lang ko sa mga relationship kay dli pman cguro ko rdy gud then hope ko lang nga mka sabot ka ok... till nxt time nlng ha ka mo pack naman sad ko sa akong stuff kay mo larga nko balik station nasad ko sa base... hope chat ta sunod
[22:37] coccyx_adz: ok lang oi naka sabot man sad ko tine..wa man sad ko ni force nimo..ni sulti raman sad ko sa akong na feel towards nimo..kay ngano tell me is it a fault na mo fall ka for someone??diba di man siguro..and kato nag talk ta sa ym kato atong past..wa man tawn tikaw gi baliwala tiny!,naka notice man ko nimo adto..naa ra nimo kng di ka mo tuo..so ure telling me na pul-anon ko?! no im not its just because wala koy freedom sa akong uyab and i told ike about it..mao to murag didto na nag start akong dili gnahan gnina..wala ko nasuko oi..ok lang i understand..wala man tikaw gi force pud..and about sa imong job..ok ra oi na ni balik ka, mao bitaw ang ako ingon sa imong cousin na "wala na tayong magawa. its really his choice and im happy for him kay i know thats what he wants..but at the same time..im sad kay his leaving."mao na ako gi tell nya..hahay your both very drunk on that time..soory if na hasol ka nako kay ni tell ko nimo sa akng na feel sorry sorry sorry i thought you understand,but its ok..and i feel so sorry about my self..hopefully lage na maka chat ta,by the way wala man ko net ron kay ako gi paayo ang laptop ni ana ang tig ayo na 2-4days pa makuha..well wla koy choice but to wait ,,naa ko house ron sa akong cousin naki hitch lang..heheh.. naa nako blog spot tine adzcarreon.blogspot.com..hahah..wa lang nabi lang..cge chat nya ta sa sunod ..leave lang nya ug message

i was the saddest person today! :(

2009-04-12T10:51:00.000-07:00

its a very nice photo isn't it? :)
i really liked this pic, its not because its tiny..haha..i just loved how it was captured its perfect for me.. :) He told me this was taken when he was in army before..:)

unfortunately, i used this pic as my desktop background..hahah
ssshhh..hahah

YAH!I'M THE SADDEST PERSON TODAY! :(

after taking my lunch, i go straight to my laptop..and checked something..Tiny messaged me..."unsay ayo diha" i told him "happy easter" and he told me something that drives me crazy! "naabot na ang result! i passed!"..and i replied "really?!!"
and a sad face again..and there he goes keep on telling me ok lang oi...hahay..i really dont understand what i felt at that moment..I was kinda happy coz he passed his test and at the same time i was sad..the next thing he told me was "i have to pack,im leaving!"...What the F*ck!!!...all i said was"wwwwhhhhaaaaaaatttttttt???!!!"he said Yes...so he called me..he gave the phone to his cousin, these guys are drunk!!!..then I talked with his cousin (tagalog pajud!)..he interviewed me..LOL..He told me nag lingaw lingaw daw sila because of his coming back to camp!they were so happy and his cousin was right and told me "wala tayong magagawa gusto nya"..He told me tiny is busy packing his stuff ang his uniforms :(..he even told me tiny has lots of guns..LOL..but naay license..he didnt even understand ngano si tiny ganahan kay mag ingon ana.."ang gusto ni tiny action ba"he told me that..siya daw dugay na unta siya sa States wala man siya mag huna huna ug ingon ana.."ewan ko sa kanya bat gusto nya talaga,eh wala talaga tayong magagawa"..He even told me "i dont know what confused him" and i asked "about what?" he told me"meron yata sinabi si ike sa kanya,hindi ko alam kung ano."hahah..i knew it what makes him confused...At first before he called me..he told me he knows na everything ike told him..i told ike about it man kato naka chat mi..si ike sad ni sulti sad ni ana pa na di daw siya mo saba! its between the two of us!LOL..and look...and he told me he already figured it out he traced everything from the picture katong naa iyang name sa sand,sa akong mga status messages and sa mga offline messages..at last naka gets na jud intawn!!hahha...he keeps on asking sad
"ngano diay?"he doesnt get it daw..hello!even i dont know why!!is it a fault when we fall for someone?!!nyahahah...mao to nag talk nami about ana he told me he doesnt want to be a traitor to my BF and me...i undersatnd..and then he told me.."sa tinood lang adz i really liked you before"and all i did was gi baliwala lang nako cya..i agree what he said ako lang siya gi baliwala..because at tjat time i dont know if sila pa ni maureen and i think si juviel di sad siya ganahn murag i think gani mao to gi awayan namo ni juviel..wa man ko idea ato..coz before we had this band called FAKE..wahahah..lol..didto nami nag start ni tiny..mao to we recalled the past and he told me he was busted!!AAwwww my ear hurts!he really had a loud voice when he said that word..."BUSTED!"and he told me ok lang oi...and "i told him im not showy at that time" and explained to him and i even told him "ni kalit man sad ka ka wala gud"and now kasabot na daw siya he felt the same way before..he dont really understand why.."i told him and now its happening again, you'll be gone for how many years!:("same as before gihapon..hahay... he was really drunk when we talked same as his cousin..ma klaro na sa tingog hubag na jud..we ended our talk coz his out of his mind na I ended our call,dropped the phone and leaved him an offline message..well hopefully that will not be our last talk..coz his cousin told me he'll be leaving next month pa..and i asked him when jud, he keeps it as a secret he just told me he'll just call or leave an offline message..hahay sabot lang sad ko kay hubaog naman...

now, i keep on listening to your guardian angel by red jumpsuit aparratus,he told me mao na iyang theme song kato naa siya sa army before...it reminds me of him :( and same thing with far away na song by nickelback..it fits for us both...

See i told you!!! Im always thinking of him :)

2009-04-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

this was taken last Thursday, April 9, 2009 at Cebu Beach Club..

I told you..I can't get him out of my head ;-P

He already seen this pic..but still he didnt get it..hahah..ok lang

he was even shocked..hahahah

During this day i left him an offline message before i left :

"my aunt just called and told me to go to their house, chat you later." We haven't chatted each other the night before and also when got home..no offline message!!!..Crap!i was expecting though..hahaha..but sad to say wala...i was wondering why...
The next day, his on YM na he sent me a message..and told me "sorry ha karon pa ko, unsa may ayo diha?,nag unsa ka?"I was really smiling and it reached my ears..hahahah...And he told me he went to Florida to have his PT for the army thing and then after he went straight to work..He was really excited for the result and so with his mom!!and for me..NNNNOOOO!!!!! :(..and then again i keep on frowning..hahah..he keeps on telling me "ok ra oi"and i said "no!it's not"..He was also anxious at that time for his result coz he told me that one of his knees is injured!..haha at least theres one thing i was happy..hahah..he told me "wala pa gni sure kung maka pasar"..I told him why he needs to go there..his life in Savannah is good..He just replied its because of his friends, coz there was one time his friends from the camp visited him on his house and asked him if he wants to go back..He told me na igo cya sa iyang ego thats why..Well theres nothing i can do but wait if his gonna pass his PT.. :)

i just cant get him out of my head :(

2009-04-12T09:42:00.001-07:00

yep! thats TINY! :)

hhhaaayyy my long lost friend...a special friend actually :) We had a past man sad..hehhe..way back when i was in my fourth year high school.We started chatted on March 31, 2009.We had a good time chatting each other kay at that time 2PM pa iyang work and 2AM sa ato-a..If I'm not mistaken nag webcam siya ato and morning to sa ila and gabie sa ato-a,dugayan man sad ni matug..That was the first time kita ko nya balik :)..heheh..His at Savannah,Georgia diay..Then, I asked him a favor if ok lang can i see his neighborhood..haha..iya sad ko gipakita..He was smoking at that time..The funny thing is that, he always carries his laptop with him whatever he does and everywhere he goes but except sa CR huh..LOL..then he goes back to his room nasad and even he gets something sa ref he carries it.haha..then hangtod na lingaw nami ug chat and ang time sad ga dagan i told him to eat na, so he decided to cook mura sad ko naa didto kay ga tan aw ko nya while he was cooking and he let me saw his breakfast he had eggs and jelly(its kinda yogurt)..yuck!hahah..Then, we started viewing eachother napud sa webcam, but the worst thing sad is everytime naa siya visitor iya ko ipakita..LOL mauwaw sad ko oi..hahha..There was one time, naa iyang SGT.(Sergeant) di ka malain gi interview pa ko!Tiny was my traslator during that time..haha..Then sugos nasad mi ug call call each other sa YM..From that time on, my feelings for him came back!wwhheeww for sooo long...hahah..Especially now na he looks good and not skinny anymore.I even call him tambokikoy:)..Before,wala kay ko na feel nya but now i really don't know why felt something this way..haha no joke!If there are times na di mi maka chat kay i'll miss him..haha..All i have to do is watch his videos in youtube..hehe..Especially now,double na iyang work Sushi bus boy siya in the morning and he will go straight to Masato Restaurant where Head Chef siya didto :)..After na dri sa Cebu and Gabie nasad kaayo sa ilaha mi maka chat.time napud nya mag rest and go to sleep but at least maka chat mi gamay..hehe..maluoy nalang gud ko nya kay dawn na cya maka tug and sayo pa cya mo mata for tomorow :)..I felt do happy when one time i cant fall asleep mga 3AM nato ni kalit lang cya ug message sa YM,i was shocked man gni ato na time kay naa siya.I asked him why naa siya he told me he drove home coz it was his break..he asked for my cam and i asked his..kadiyot ra kaayo to wala abtig 20 mins. or 15..LOL..One time, he called me we talked about his coming back being an Army..He asked me why di ko ganhan and why i keep on sending him a sad face na emoticons..He doent know i will miss him so much..We had a nice conversation na..ug sa dihang ni ring ang phone,nya it was my BF who called..iyang gi butang ang phone..and sent me"tiwasa lang na inyo talk sa imo BF ok?"and i told him"wait"he replied "ok lang"and that was the last message he sent i keep on buzzing him..but still no answer and he turned his YM off..:( ..To think kadiyot ra mi nag talk sa akong BF ato.Then, i think sugod ato mura siyag ni change ni samot ug panagsa nami mag talk or mag chat.And the most worst thing is, I knew he'll be going back being an Army:(..But now, i think sayo sayo na sad siya ma uli and maka chat nasad mi ug taas taas.I understand man sad na busy siya..All my status message sa YM gud is all for him..hehe..The day when he told me his coming back sa iyang army stuff,honestly, i felt like crying..Aw I was crying na jud diay oi,but not that much,I cried because Im gonna miss him and again he will be gone for how many years!:(

hahay..could anyone tell me what does this mean???hahahah

when im with him I am thinking of YOU!

2009-04-12T09:34:00.000-07:00

it's all because of him..... :)

his the YOU actually..hahahah

my TAMBOKIKOY!! ;)

it all started on March 31, 2009

Broken Strings!!!

2009-04-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

wwhheewww! this song really strikes me..most especially at my situation right now...the song is titled: Broken Srings by: James Morrison and Nelly Furtado..wow what a nice song..My favorite line is I LOVE YOU A LITTLE LESS THAN BEFORE..wait, let me correct that line my situation right now. Well im already taken to this guy.We are already 3 years and 11 months (wow for that)..well im posting this because wala lang i just wanted to express something..hahah

Well, here it goes...

When we had our two years in our relationship..there i go..i started to be unfaithful..hahah..i really dont know why..maybe because pul-anon ko pag ka tao..mag bisaya lang ko ha,kapuyag english oi dugay kay ko mahuman..hahah..well going back..asa na gni ta?..aw uu..being unfaithful, his so higpit! mura kog walay freedom nya mas grabe pa cya sa akong parents..LOL..and what pisses me off is, everytime manglaag mi sa akong mga friends he wants na naa cya..nya ma ikog ko sa akong mga friends oi..nya kani cya na guy gahi kay pasabton!dugay kay maka sabot as in! his so sensitive!!!and it really iritates me...gamayng sulti nato lainon na ug sabot nya..ahak!In connection sa broken strings na song, i dont love him the way i loved him before..there are times na di nako ganahan or wa nakoy gana..But i really dont know why i cant tell him straight na we need to break up..The reason behind is, everytime i had a problem i always go to him, he knows everything about me and most especially the problem sa among family..and also close nako sa iyng side..actually his my first BF na naka tugkad diri sa amo..heheh..what i like about him is i can tell anything to him and everywhere i want to go and when im with him i feel safe..Maldito man mo sukol man sad..hahah..thats what i like about him..And now, ambot oi wa nakoy gana less na akong na feel nya..WALA NAY SPARK!!boring na..honestly, i really wanted to be single right now!and i mean it...well if ganahan akong BF makig split ok lang..di ko mag mahay sa iyng iingon nko..im afraid man gud na ako ang mo ingon..thats my weakness jud!..hahay..well ill just wait nalang unsay ma happen namo or maybe ill just wait nalang hangtod mo larga mi..hahah..thats why..WE CANT PLAY ON BROKEN STRINGS, WE CANT FEEL ON ANYTHING :(

adz

WooooTTT WoooooTTT ! :)

2009-04-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

yiipppeee!!!

i already have my new and first blog spot!!wwoohhooo...actually i decided to make one, but because of my busy schedule i can't make it...and today my friend..my Ex classmate..hahah..Jan Arnaiz had this poll to be answered he gave me a link and i found out that it was his blog spot..hahah...so i decided to make one...and Wahlah! there you go my blog spot...hahah...at least if im bored i can write anything whats on my mind...or in other words i can express anything whats within myself...heheh..feel free to leave a comment..

TeeCee :)